Monday, July 28, 2008

I'm All Over The Place

I didn't think I would have this strong of a reaction to Crista's wedding. She's talked about marrying Zach even when they were broken up. This isn't a sudden marraige. This isn't a surprise. But when she came down that aisle, I started to cry and tears have been close to the surface ever since. And they don't feel like just "happy tears." I am completely overjoyed for her, don't get me wrong, but there's something else in these tears that feels a little painful. I feel like I've lost her a little bit. I've lost Crista Cope and gained Crista Austin. This is the first time I've ever had to deal with this transition so close to me. It's scary.

My scattered emotions this past week have left me exhausted and anxious. Being a bridesmaid for Crista has meant so much to me. I've only known her for two years, but I feel like I have more claim to her than some who have known her her entire life. We've shared so much in this short time. She's married now and I know some things will change, but there are some things I know I can always count on from her (i.e. almost daily text messages).

I love you dearly Crista and I definitely want to see you and Zach around Abilene sometime.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Four Weddings And A Funeral

So my life isn't exactly like this movie, but the title sums up my summer.

Wedding #1: May 24... Audrey. Works with Mom. San Antonio.

Wedding #2: June 14... Rebecca. Abilene High Friend. Abilene.

Wedding #3: June 28... Katie & Jeremiah. Friends from Highland, Oxford, ACU, etc. Abilene

Funeral: July 8... Grandpa Stone. Mom's Dad. Springfield, VA.

Wedding #4: July 26... Crista. ACU Freshman Roommate. Seneca, MO.

It's been a strange journey, but I'm ready for something calmer that feels less like a rollercoaster.