Saturday, August 22, 2009

Moses

I don't know when these feelings became my biggest problem. They always seem to creep up on me. I don't see them coming until I'm on the floor in a friend's bathroom unable to breathe because I'm sobbing so hard.

I don't know when I started hating school. I used to love it. I used to feel comfortable in the classroom. Well, not comfortable. But it used to be easier to blend into the background.

I don't know when I started questioning my every decision. I'm not comfortable with my own thought until someone else can confirm it. Then I can shift the blame in case I'm wrong.

I don't know how I keep going. to class. to work-out. to babysit. to church.

I don't know why I even care anymore.

But I do.

Moses by Patty Griffin:

Diamonds, Roses, I need Moses
To cross this sea of loneliness,
Part this red river of pain.

I don't necessarily buy
Any key to the future or happiness
But I need a little place in the sun
Sometimes or I think I will die.

Everywhere is somewhere and Nowhere is near
Every body got some body with their wine and their beer.
So I'm just this tragic figure in the corner over here
With an empty apartment and a best friend who is a queer.

Every time I see him he smiles
And he tells me how well he's walking these miles.
But he never ever asks a single thing about me
If I die, he'd hear about it eventually

Diamonds, Roses, I need Moses
To cross this sea of loneliness,
Part this red river of pain.

Everywhere is somewhere and Nowhere is near.
Every body got some body with their wine and their beer.
So I'm just this tragic figure in the corner over here
Go home to an empty apartment and call a best friend who is a queer.

Diamonds, Roses, I need Moses
To cross this sea of loneliness,
Part this red river of pain.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Slowly Coming Back

I will actually write something soon. It will just take a little bit for me to get it all down. For now, I'll just let you know what I'm hearing.





Thursday, August 06, 2009

Glee



Meet my summer obsession...